Well, we are just about done with the home study for our adoption. Now is when the fun really begins. It seems like we are just going to repeat much of what we did for our home study for our dossier. It's classic government organization! But, as we finish one task and move to the next this adoption is becoming more of a reality in my life. I told a friend last night about our plans, she was so excited and not a bit surprised. It was a bit frustrating to be honest, not in a bad way but that I'm that predictable. She said you've always talked about you were supposed to have 4 kids so of course you're adopting. It's true, that's always been in my heart, #4 is missing. Well, as this becomes real so do two very real issues that go along with this blessed event. The naming of the child and the funding of all things adoption. As far as the name goes we've been pretty set on Nathan or Nathaniel, but for the past few days I haven't really felt settled. All three of our other kids are named after people that we have loved. Hayden was named after the most precious little boy in the world. We were his Sunday School teachers in the middle of all the miscarriages. He was such a little man, he would walk into class with his London Fog jacket and matching cap. He always wanted Veldon to hold him and play with him. He nor his family know the impact that sweet boy had on us. He was a sweet salve for two broken hearts. Allison was named after the funniest woman I have ever known and a great friend Deborah Allison Burns. She could make me laugh until my sides ached. She was one of the few girls in college that could laugh until she wet herself...on a regular basis. She is still funny and still makes me laugh. Allison was the most beautiful name I could think of and was the perfect name for our beautiful Allison. Katie was named Katherine after my grandmother...kind of. I love the name Katherine with a "C" as my grandmother spelled it, but Veldon insisted that if she was to be called Katie, we would spell Katherine with a "K". Katherine is such a regal, elegant name which describes my lovely Katie perfectly. She is delicate and graceful. So now we come to #4, we have no Nathan...none that I care to name my son after. But we do have a Max! What a cute name that would be. I keep seeing it everywhere too. Max, it's strong but cute. I don't know. Veldon is very little help, every time I change my mind he goes...okay it's Max or whatever name I am playing with. Of course there's time, we're not getting this cutie any time soon but I would just like to have the name thing settled.
Our next issue...money. Oh my goodness this is huge. We aren't really the "need to have it all figured out" types. But when you're talking about thousands and thousands of dollars it would be nice to have a direction. We don't. I know God called us to do this so I know He'll work it all out but it is overwhelming. So I'm not worried...yet, but I do keep wondering in the back of my mind if adoptions fall through because the parents can't afford to travel to get their child? Oh how I hope not! How sad that would be for us all.
Faithfully, trusting Him...
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