Well, we've identified a child. We've only had his picture for a little over a week but we are smitten. He is a cutie. Nothing in adoption is final until he's here in our safe home, but we are hopeful that the rest of the process will go smoothly. I'm so amazed that we are doing this. I'm overwhelmed and grateful that God has placed this call on our lives. Our kids are so excited, this will be a long process for them, they carry his picture and have shown it all over our school. The news has spread like fire and I've answered a thousand questions about what we are doing...mostly why. What we are doing I can answer, why is another story. I have no answer except there's nothing else my heart can do. I have three beautiful, amazing children. We laugh a lot, we talk a lot. I'm not missing anything, but there are children out there missing everything. They are waiting hopefully everyday for their mom to walk in the door and save them. I'm compelled to do that. Here's the really great thing. I don't think they will ever feel as blessed as I will. Already my heart is overflowing with love for this baby. If we can alleviate the despair in one sweet life, we must do so. There's nothing in my future that looks better than raising another child for my Savior. No vacation or home, no income, no car or possession that could possibly compare to one life, nothing. So as we pour over paperwork and procedure I feel so grateful that God has called us to do this for Him. We will never change the world, or write a book that tells everyone the secrets to a meaningful life, there's no worldly greatness around the corner for us, just a beautiful, sweet, little orphan who needs someone to rock him to sleep when he's grumpy, or kiss his boo boo when he falls, or make sure his little hand gets pressed into that gooey stuff for an imprint. We can do that, we can be those people.
So try as I might to worry about his name or our finances. How we are going to actually pay for this adoption. I can't. I have such peace. We have prayed and prayed, we have sought the Lord on this, we have no desire to do anything outside of His will and so far he leads us forward. If this great God of ours can provide a way for us to have a relationship with Him, despite our sin, how in the world could I doubt that He could provide something as small as airfare to get us halfway around the world to collect our little blessing?
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