Home Study..12/08

Well, we made it safely through the first of three home studies for our adoption. I was so nervous, especially at night, things are always worse for me at night. I just kept worrying about different things, but in the end it was all pretty uneventful. There are still two more visits and a lot of work to do but we're on our way. It's amazing to me that we have come this far. For several years this has been on my heart off and on, but it was not anything I ever thought we could do. Mostly because of finances. Raising three kids is expensive enough and adding another to the mix seemed impossible, but it's not...we can do this. I feel kind of old too. I'll be homeschooling well into my fifties, but what else would I be doing? I'm going to get older one way or another I might as well use my energy to raise another sweet baby. We are so early in this process that actually having the child doesn't seem real. It's not all consuming for me though. It's something I really want to do and, Lord willing, I figure it will work out