So Sad

Every corner of my heart hurts right now! I don't want to wait any longer, I don't want to be patient, I don't want to hear anyone else tell me it will happen, I just want it to happen. I don't want to be strong, I don't want to be brave, I just want to hold my little boy. I just want to bring him home, I just want to tell him everything is okay now because Mommy and Daddy have come, and his life will never be the same. We're stuck in a seemingly never ending dream in which we know what we are looking for and every time we have about found it, it vanishes again...just out of our reach, so close I can almost feel it and then poof...gone. I am overwhelmed with sadness, I am broken, and I'm not sure how this will ever find resolution. Every corner of my heart hurts right now!